Friday, December 19, 2008

Living Alone??


Can I live alone?

Now that my older children are in Ipoh for the school holidays and it's the semester break for Polytechnic students (we live in a warden quarters of girls hostels)….it seems too quiet around the house. When they’re around they fight with each other, got into each other’s nerves and I sometimes have to use my highest vocal pitch to stop them!


My house - so quiet and empty


View from the balcony

It’s kinda weird and the house seems empty. Even Haqimi can’t stand the quietness…! He’ll just whine, whine and whine ….. He misses his siblings who are always picking on him…playing with him, kissing him, hugging him…




Empty rooms at Infotech 2 - Gone for the semester break!(View from our entrance door)


My mom has been living alone for years…(since I left for ITM). And now she told me she’s used to the loneliness and whenever we come back for the holidays, she’ll get nervous and tense to see children running around, the crying, the house wrecking…!


I sometimes wonder what if I’m left alone in my older days. Will I be okay like my mom or I’d choose to stay with my children…?My mom was restless on her 3rd day visiting us...(she's worried about her orchids, her plants, her unsettled utility bills, her doctor's appointment...these are classic examples of reasons to go back to her house - fast!).


Hmm...I guess we'll get use to anything if it's not a choice. Just live with it ...


Oh, well.. Whatever it is, I want to enjoy the moment when my children are still around (eventhough they can cause major headache sometimes!) and remind myself let the future be the future…there’s no point cracking your head thinking about it..!


2 comments:

Suzlynna said...

Well Zara I think all mothers are just like your mother. They prefer to stay on their own rather than troubling their children...
My mom had an athma attack last Friday & we took her to the clinic (thanks to my hubby for his willingness to send my mother there). I have to pakat with the doctor that somenone needs to monitor her condition and in the end she agreed to stay with me for the 1st time since I moved out from her house 11 years ago.
Yesterday, very early in the morning she packed her things and keep on reminding me that she wants to go back...So I told her ok but until you have taken your dinner...
The worst part is her house and my house is only 3 lorong away or less then 3 mins drive (5 mins walk)...but yet she still want to go back...
May be we'll be like that too when we are old...

Kak Z said...

My mom kata sume org tua mcm tu. Korang dah tua nanti, korang tau lah..katanya!

Oh, Well...